Pain so deep i can hardly breathe

I sit in a haze
remembering your kiss, a hug, somewhere in my dreams.
This morning while I lay ..wondering ..
This can't be happening.
Love betrayed me, I heard it was painful.
It never hurt this bad before, I can hardly breathe.
Somehow I feel this must be my payback for being happy, feeling secure for seven years.
How could I be so stupid.
I think he'll say he's sorry, he doesn't.i think he'll surprise me, he doesn't.I think he'll bring me flowers, he doesn't.
He says he loves me, he cares, but he is so determined to push me away away away.
I've done it, turned into an old witch.
Someone somewhere will love me and my son..