My thoughts seem to scatter, but I think it's about...forgiveness

Forgiveness? Oh Puuullleeese. I am at the point now where I don'yt want him back anymore. His bank statement came in from the bank account he had to open on his own, in his own name. I was wrong to open it, but I did. He bought 230 some dollars worth of jewerly for someone on 12/22, the day I was at my new doctors. All I feel is dispise. He bought me a book on barak obama. sheesh. pitiful. He said he bought it for someone who i never heard of who got him some contract. He said he did it that way because I would think there was an affair. Silly me. So while all I get is shit, ice frozen shit, someone else is getting jewerly.

On a more positive note, my parents said they would pay for a good lawyer.

My son has snowboots and it is snowing. He is 4. We will both be here tomorrow and I am looking foward to a snowman.

There is still shreds of wanting to believe him, if for no other reason than to believe maybe that I have not failed again.

I was married to my first husband for 15 yrs.