calling off the wolves

I don't know why but when I talk to him I feel some sense of it being ok. I spent time and energy letting those i know what he was doing, how i was hurting and i was getting a lawyer. Yes, inddeed i do still have an appointment for 1/27 that i am not cancelling just yet.Yesterday was spent telling everyone that i was indeed NOT going after the divorce. i am however looking into school. i am not stupid. weather he wants to stay i may never know. i really don't care much. i took off my rings and could care less about anything. why try, it just goes nowhere anyway.