Simple Breakfast

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Life goes on

Some days I wake up and wonder? "What the fuck?" Can my life really have turned out this way? The only thing I knew for sure was tha I had someone who loved me. That was 25 yrs ago. I suffered through biting poverty and gave it everything I had. now, 2 husbands and what seems like a lifetime later I am not even sure of that. There is no one that loves me. And it scares the crap out of me.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

wounds that don't heal

I am feeling better, but sometimes it takes every ounce of restraint I can muster not to call.

Thursday, November 24, 2005 there anybody out there

just smile if you can hear me......
Someone once told me "when will people learn that blogs are not meant to be a pesonal diary"
That's when I stopped writing a pesonal view of life as I know it.
Today, the cycle has broken. There is somone out there who can relate to me, I feel it. This thanksgiving was about the most bizarre ever. Don't believe me? listen up. I cooked a 12 lb turkey, french onion soup, salad, rolls, zuchinni, sweet potatoes, potatoes, homeade pumpkin and apple pie with NO ONE to share it with. Do men appreciate a woman who can cook pie from scratch? Obviously not. There will be more of this story to come, but I have had 3/4 a bottle of wine alone and that's all I can write right now. If your 42+ and a male, I'd love to talk. There is so something I am missing.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

a new life

Here I am now, 42, single and with a 4 year old no less. My soon to be x (stbx) and I separated in March. I feel bitter, at times disgusted with my life. I have started smoking again after being smoke free for 10 years. It doesn't look rosey.

Thursday, February 24, 2005


So much for spring in the air, we have had 3 snowstorms in the last week.


So much for spring in the air, we have had 3 snowstorms in the last week.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Spring is in the air

You can tell the weather change is going towards spring. Maybe it's the days going longer, or just that smell when you walk out the door, time to get healthy, get outdoors. Live well, love life.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Has it been 25 years?

Yup, graduated HS in 1981. It's wierd, there are a few people I wouldn't mind chit chatting with but they never show up in classmates or site the like. I google names too, but none the less, only people I can't remember or vaguely remember come up. I wonder why that is.